hard
i read your cd today
cover to cover to cover
i stood in the center of the city
and cried, cried, cried

do you remember that Christmas when there were no gifts,
save the ducks?
and we put candy canes on the tree
that time in the Memphis bookstore
those were good days for me

it’s been hard watching you sink into fame
it’s been hard watching you peddle for gigs
it’s not been easy the way that we’ve changed
and i wonder if we’ve learned how to live

i heard your name today
over and over and over
pretending that i don’t care
i lied, lied, lied

do you remember what i said that evening?
you’ll never know the past i bear like a cross?
well, i was wrong ‘cause here you are believing
what you’ve got is not nearly what you lost

it’s been hard watching you sink into fame
it’s been hard watching you peddle for gigs
it’s not been easy the way that we’ve changed
and i wonder if we’ve learned how to live

i cannot help but miss your presence
this city is a nonstop tour bus
i think i came back for this lesson
and you stay gone to forget about us

it’s been hard watching you sink into fame
it’s been hard watching you peddle for gigs
it’s not been easy the way that we’ve changed
and i wonder if we’ve learned to really live

penny rene’

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Being that it was GMA week, I saw quite a bit of nice live bands - but I want to mention some hi-lights - (I’m in a cheeky mood, so skip this if you aren’t)
Mark Townsend & Tony Lucido backing Jennifer Knapp - worth seeing even if they weren’t touring with Third Day.
John Reuben - scares me. I’ll probably regret saying this but Pax 217 - the best thing Forefront has done in too many years.
dct - Been so long, gone from the mic that they forgot “jesus freak” during a set with AA. Will someone please publicly admit that Kevin left the group already?
Riley Armstrong - deserves a medal for his guts, if not his integrity.

Bands I want to see because they are good people: (aside from sounding so flipping good) - Luna Halo, Heather Miller, Fono, Pete Stewart, Bleach.
And finally, people I’ve no intention of seeing because “i’ve seen enough already, thanks” - Jaci Velasques, Raze, 1/3rd of Out of Eden (too bad for the other 2) GG, Shine and Plus One. Good thing I’m not a writer for a Vox magazine. I’d get fired today.

By the way, I have a temporary job- thank God! But I’m still praying for that one that I’m actually suited for. Thanks to all of your responses last week. I needed it. I know that half of you have no idea what I’m talking about. That’s OK. I’ll talk to that half of you next week. ( I hope) Miss you Okies. Have a good Easter. Maybe think about where we’d be without it. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have a raging fever that is begging for Tylenol and a nap. Maybe next memo I’ll make sense..... (:

Penny Rene'