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Week 2 in Nashville

13 · Apr · 2000

Before I left OKC, I told myself that there would come a day that I would feel as if I had made a terrible mistake by moving to Nashville and that I would think my whole life to be one big train wreck. This is the nature of taking charge of one's life - wondering, when things get bad, if I have made the right decision.
But I knew I would feel this way and I knew I would be wrong; thus preparing myself for last Tuesday. Alas, here I am today, at the keyboard, alive.

Yesterday I hand delivered resumes to the likes of City Press, Zeitgeist Gallery, Ruby Green Foundation, Squint Records, CCM Countdown, and the Nashville Scene. I interviewed at an artist management company on Music Row. I found a job... for Laurie.

Today, I plan to deliver a dozen more resumes. I’m considering a career in retail... I cannot help but giggle. This is my ridiculous life.

On the way home, I stopped in Portland Brew for a double mocha and sat down to assess the damage and write a poem about the first thing that came to mind.

Escalating Blue, a chorus I discarded last Sunday, ran through my mind. Though I may not keep it this way, I put it with verses I wrote that same Sunday in church. So, this is my offering today, to the critics, the instant memo deleters, and the kind readers are scribblings I wrote:

escalating blues

I rest like a baby in the palm of your hand
and refuse to face the light of day
All those distractions bang on my door
though I have nothing to say
It is two lifetimes from this house to where I came from
So, there’s no going back even when this life is done

Escalating blues
This house is full of escalating blues
and You are green
Today I offer up my dreams
You smile, saying “Life’s not what it seems.
It may look like escalating blue Because you’re green”

I close my eyes as a guitar pulls me along
Surrender of sight, sound and touch
Excuses lie on the sweet tip of my tongue
But they never amount to much
If I sit on the front row and speak of my visions unseen
Will You open a window and tell me what all of it means?

Escalating blues
This house is full of escalating blues
and You are green
Today I offer up my dreams
You smile, saying “Life’s not what it seems.
It may look like escalating blue
Because you’re green”

penny rene'

Posted by Penny Rene at 01:36 PM