Is it weird that I have these former lives? That I lived in foreign places and had different friends and interests than what I have now? I had close relationships and important experiences with people who are completely unknown to my present life.

I don't know how to mesh the two - they are so different. Not that I want everyone together at some big party. But I spend a lot of time feeling incomplete - like no one out there knows all of me.
I want to take Mike to Romania and to England. I want us to have dinner with ... maybe with Nick and Brooke.

I know ! I Know! You don't know what I'm talking about. Or if you do, you think it's crazy. Hey - I think it's crazy too.
But I sometimes feel closer to Rachel in London than I do to family I see every day. I don't want that former life back. I just want the one I have to be more honest - more real.

I hope the fact that I still care about these people means that I am not completely heartless and that the bond - however brief- I had with them was real. There is a saying: Relationships that do not end peacefully do not end at all.

Congratulations Rachel. Sincerely.